I want my Dan back

I don't think I have many if any readers so I am just going to write what is on my mind....

Lately, I have been putting myself out there on dating websites this week it's Catholic Match.

All I can say is that I want my Dan back. It was so easy so fun so natural. I don't understand how he couldn't have loved me considering all that we shared. It is so hard to move on and let other people in your life when at one time you had who you thought was the right person in your life. I know you all think I am nuts how could I be sad over someone who didn't love me. But the truth is I don't understand how he could have been with me for so long if he didn't love me. I think we just needed more time and that it could have worked eventually. I am so sad in writing this I miss him so much. Each day I am trying to move on, but I can't help but think of my very best friend and how very far away from me he is today and everyday for the rest of my life.