More graduate school?

I finally know what I am going to do with my life! Go back for more graduate school. I know I know I have done nothing but say how much I want to get a job and forgo the english paper for a while. However, it has occurred to me that I am able to teach at a community college after just two more courses. Plus, it will ford me the opportunity of taking some writing courses, which after reading my blogs it is clear that I could benefit from that..where are you Haley Rowland. And with that I will keep you posted over the next few weeks in how that is going.

Second up...My Christmas Wish comes true....

My Christmas wish is always to send the ones I love a gift of love. Of course it's the same bundle of joy every year..the singing dolls from Hallmark. They get cuter and better every year! This year I have had the opportunity to send out three. One to my grandparents, one to my parents, and one to Haley. I have already heard from my grandparents and my grandma sounded so happy to have recieved it. I just love sending them something that will make them smile!

New Month=ephinany

Ok that is probably not spelled write. But the point is I have a new outlook on why my relationship was designed to fail. Deep down I always knew it would. I was afraid of it ending, of losing him. Despite our religious differences I have realized now what I should have never overlooked meanwhile knowing that whole time that I was going to ulimately regret it. Not because he wasn't a great person, but because I wasn't going to church, etc. I am not blaming him. I wanted it despite all of the reasons I shouldn't have. He did me the favor of saying we weren't going to work out. I could never take myself out of it. I was never strong enough, I loved him too much. But tonight there was a wedding. No church service, no blessing. I thought to myself how shallow. How do they know their marriage will last? I have to have God at my wedding. So with that I decided to at least contact Dan to see if we could be friends. He said he wanted to keep in touch. I will admit I have been quite immature and mean towards him in my thoughts and although there are some things I will never completely forget, there is something to be said about him and how he was able to put aside my feelings and say that we were not going to work. Because it is that one line of truth that I must not forget. It is our bottom line the one reason I can cling to as I break my heart out of him. I was not meant to marry Dan because he does not believe in God and God is in every part of my life, including my marriage. It hurts terribly because we were so close and I loved him with all of my heart. But there is nothing I can about it. No matter if I wasn't pretty enough, polished enough, smart enough, he was not religious enough for me and that means more in my opinion than any of the things that kept him from falling in love with me. So let's stop there. Let's stop adding up all the days moments that he was unfair to me. For I loved every second I was with him. Ifelt like the luckiest girl in the world. I have enough strength inside of me to walk away peacefully and say it wasn't meant to be.

I did something tonight that I never thought I would do. I reached out to him and offerred to be friends. Life is too short. We will all die. Why not let him keep up with me. I have prepared to learn about his life moving forward without me. And he never really wanted me to be in his life. Someone will Thank him someday. He really didnt know me the way I want to be known. It just felt right to smooth things over. I wish him everything that I couldn't give him; I am sure he wishes me the same.

Great website!

I love to put information out there about great discounts and deals. Recently, I purchased a coupon book for my trip to California. As part of the book I was privy to a website that I think anyone can use. The website is www.entertainment.restaurant.com. This website will allow you to purchase gift certificates for certain restaurants at a discounted price. In other words, a gift certificate that is worth 10 dollars can be purchased for 3. I haven't actually tried this yet, but if you do let me know how the certificates are sent. Do you print them? Are they mailed?

Ahhh...much better!

Yesterday was plain awful...you can say that again...Yesterday was plain awful..but that's that!

I am so happy that I booked solid tmr. I am working a job for Fred's, a job with 1st consumer or something. Plus I have an interview with nine west and a focus group tmr night.

I will give you all the updates tmr.

Good night.

K

I want my Dan back

I don't think I have many if any readers so I am just going to write what is on my mind....

Lately, I have been putting myself out there on dating websites this week it's Catholic Match.

All I can say is that I want my Dan back. It was so easy so fun so natural. I don't understand how he couldn't have loved me considering all that we shared. It is so hard to move on and let other people in your life when at one time you had who you thought was the right person in your life. I know you all think I am nuts how could I be sad over someone who didn't love me. But the truth is I don't understand how he could have been with me for so long if he didn't love me. I think we just needed more time and that it could have worked eventually. I am so sad in writing this I miss him so much. Each day I am trying to move on, but I can't help but think of my very best friend and how very far away from me he is today and everyday for the rest of my life.

Three cheers for Wendy's

Dear Friends,

I know Wendy's is not the healthiest choice for lunch. But I was driving to one of my "jobs" today and needed a quick pick me up and something to eat so I went to Wendy's. Last time I went there it was a long wait and the orders in front of me were getting messed up left and right. I was not expecting anything special and instead was treated royally by the staff at this particular location.

I liked the way the person at the counter greeted me. It was an extra nice way of making my purchase seeming like the most important purchase of the day. Second, the order came out piping hot. I usually have to eat the fries hurridly fearing the fries have turned cold. However, this time I had to allow them a few minutes to cool. Oh and by the way the same person who greeted me made sure I received my order upon exiting the restroom. Another nice gesture.

Thirdly, another employee came over to visit me while I was eating to make sure my meal was satisfactory.

I praise Wendy's for their attention to customer satisfaction, quality of their food, and the improvements they have made. I will be sure to visit them again!

K

Legally Blonde...Why I like it.

Okay Okay I will admit before today I have never watched nor had any desire to watch Legally Blonde. I don't set out to be THAT person that goes against the grain; I am just not drawn to frilly girly movies with pink and fluff. However, recently I have been watching the MTV TV show about the Legally Blonde musical. This week I fell in love with the song OMIGOD the title may sound silly; but the range of the song is truly remarkable. That brings me today when I decided to rent the movie Legally Blonde and see what all the hype is about.

My oh My!

What I discovered is that there is a little of Elle in all of us. Wanting to please someone else and making someone else our dream then, realizing that there is more to life than a relationship and the hope that you can do anything your heart desires. Like many other famous Broadway Shows the story offers hope and inspiration. Even in a character like Elle Woods-whom, we would all love to hate. And as much as I hate to admit it this is the film that really drove Witherspoon's career. All the ingredients for a brillant success were present: Selma and Witherspoon had worked together before so they had the experience to pull off a brillant match up on screen, the movie clueless was produced a few years earlier so the writers knew this type of material would sell, and there was more to the story than girl finding herself.

I love the script, I love the characters, and most importantly I love the ideas proposed in this movie. Legally Blonde inspires all of us to reach inside and make a little difference in our lives and the lives of those around us!

What does it take?

Dear Friends,

To all of my married friends out there what does it take to land a man? You have all done nicely. All of your men take care of you and treat you special. I am not finding such luck out there in the dating scene. Here are a few of my problems:

1. No Marriage

Guys today want to get the milk for free without buying the cow..or something like that. They try to convince me to lighten up but I won't buy it and they make me feel crazy for wanting more than a midnight moment of joy..oh well these guys are easy to turn down, but make me feel less hopeful that I will EVER meet the right guy.

2. No dating

Yes, you heard it from me. They want you to pay for yourself these days. And then they get the right to tell you how you don't measure up..oh well these guys are easy to avoid as well. But, they make the light at the tunnel seem a little less than visible.

3. Finding the one

Well I was perfectly happy in a perfectly awful relationship for 2.5 years. So I guess I know absoutely nothing about finding the "one" but please post your comments and let me know your keys to success.

K

The waiting game?

If you are in a position where you are waiting for things to happen take matters into your own hands. Make a list of the things you want done in your personal life..by the time you have finished those then the wait shall be over! (cross your fingers)

I am still waiting for a job and I have had a couple of interviews this week so we will see what happens. Meanwhile I am serving at an event tmr night. I am really excited to see what kinds of events people will pay to have for themselves. I am being totally serious. I would never spend more than needed to have a wedding for myself. If I am not going to have a totally crazy frilly wedding at least I get to go to other people's.

The Hogans

I have been following the Hogans for quite sometime. Being that I do not have my own family I always take interest in other family reality tv shows. I used to love the Hogans. They seemed like a typical family with their ups and downs. No matter what I always saw the love that they shared. I am really surprised that the day Hulk took Nick to buy that car has lead to the current tradegy. However, I think that it could have easily been the other way around. Everyone that was participating in those events knew of the risks involved. Nick was not purposefully trying to kill anyone-IMHO. I think they should just call it accident and let Nick deal with this. I really feel that Nick is forever scarred and his life is forever changed. I guess the reality tv show band wagon really does have its price. Sure, their lives may look fancy and free to us --but they have bigger problems then I would ever want. I also think the downfall of the marriage of Linda and Hulk would be different without the glitz and the glam.

Oh well --everyone survive the heat today!

Relationship status

If you are in a serious dating relationship take a moment to appericate the person you are with. If you are married or even engaged I have no advice because I have been neither of those in my short life. However, if you dating your best friend take a minute to tell him or her how much you appericate the quiet moments that you share. The moments when you are not some expensive resturant, not on the way to work-- the five o clock hour when you have no where in particular to be and the two of you are just together in your own quietness. Remember relationships are not about finding the perfect looking guy, most wealthy guy, instead it is about finding someone you could sit on a bench with for hours and just be happy enjoying the person's company.

Pounding the pavement day 1

The great job hunt has begun. So far I have visited three prospects: Hospitality Services, Charles Foster Staffing, and Olsten. Two of the three were possibly sucessful so far. Hospitality services is allowing me to recieve training which will land me a job after just one day. Charles Foster is going to contact Roper Hospital to see if they will accept me despite my vacation request. I hope these both work to my favor. I am hoping to be fighting for time to work out and to suffer from sleep depreviation soon.

In other news I had dinner with Don tonight. He is a good friend. I really enjoy having someone to hang out with. I hope he finishes his projects on his house soon. He wants to go back to Europe and make some more money so he can finish remodeling it to his desires. One day I hope to have a house I can fix up.

Luckily that is all of the happenings for today stay tuned for day two of hitting the pavement and an update of my night with Joey..if it will happen...

Coupon dilemmas, cops, and more

Okay okay I know most of you would think my life is nothing but a boring mess..but here are some highlights of my heart pounding day..

On Sunday I purchased a newspaper. I really don't do this anymore, but the highlight of sunday's paper has always been the coupons. This Sunday I found a coupon for $2.00 off a pack of razors. Now I know I could buy the cheap kind for less than two bucks. However, I like the nice ones it's one of the last few luxuries I have since moving out on my own and never having ANY money. (Although I am aware that according to some countries I am rich.) ANYWAY so in this sunday's paper there was a coupon for the fancy razors. I decided I would purchase the razors on my way home from the gym to save myself a trip. When I was about to leave the gym I decided to purchase the razors at the grocery store instead. That's when this story gets interesting. I found the razors on sale for 4.29. Plus I had my two dollar coupon so that would make my purchase less than 2.50. I was stoked. I probably wouldn't even beat that price at Wal-mart which was my original vendor until I realized they would be cheaper at the location I was presently at rather than driving to another location. As I approached the register there was a lady waiting on someone else so she let me go ahead. The customer before me was loading up on non necessities. It always bothers me to see other people purchasing cigarettes and booze. You don't really need those things and there is probably an unpaid bill somewhere else that you could use the money towards. If you owe money on a mortage than you shouldn't be buying anything you don't need. But hey that's just my opinion. For some reason while thinking about the wasteful purchases the lady in front of me was making I decided to grab my razors off the belt. To my dismay the coupon began to roll in the belt. The lady behind me was trying to explain that every time I picked up my razors the entire belt moved forward. I felt pretty dumb that this lady knew more about grocery store belts than I. I immediately became completely defeated. First I lost my discount after all of that planning and hard work. Second of all if I was going to pay full price for the razors I would rather not be in a location as disguisting and depressing as this particular Food Lion. Fortunately, the cashier was able to give me the two dollar discount. I became quite relieved and pleased at this outcome. However, when she rung the razors up they were only showing the two dollar discount. The additional VIP savings was only showing for the customers who had the card. A double bonus day--the lady behind me allowed me to use her card. So finally, I left the store with my razors saving about four dollars. One dollar per razor.

I didn't realize the story was going to take so much time to write. I will keep the second story short.

I was in front of a cop. I wasn't speeding or anything but I have this fear of riding behind cops. I pulled over into a nearby neighborhood. When I was driving back down the original road I noticed an ambluance two cars behind me. As I pulled over on a sidestreet to the let the ambluance pass I turned right into the place the ambluance was headed and the cop that was behind me was there too. I think he was inside I don't think he made the connection. Oh well kind of ironic.

Lastly, I have a cheers and jeers for the day. Cheers to Sonic's Caramel Milkshake--very good.

Jeers to the movie Grace is Gone I should have known better but it really wasn't very good. I can't wait until Definitely Maybe comes out later this month.

Please ignore my spelling mistakes I am typing without glasses. I hope you enjoy getting a little glimpse of my life.

Enjoy tomorrow!

My last day as a sub..for a while?

Dear Friends,

Today was my last day as a sub. Of course they may need me in summer school and I will probably sub some next fall; but for now I will hang up my id badge and put away my bag of sudoko puzzles. I have really learned a lot about myself while subbing the last few months. Mainly, subs are nothing but babysitters and students don't really care what you did with your life before you became a sub. I have also learned some techniques for managing a classroom and have learned how not to get a class against you.

So if any of you who may have a job out there for me this summer let me know..game on!

K

Introduction

Dear friends I have decided to start posting a blog of all of my videos I have been creating lately. I hope you enjoy. As for the name as everybody knows I don't like spicey food so I choose this as my address. I wanted something funnier --but many were taken such as:

Capital K

Hold the cheese..

okay so only two were taken..oh well hopefully nobody who I don't know will find me..

enjoy!